Regretting You (Lionheart Academy #3)

Here's T Ashleigh's "Regretting You." It's the third novel in the Lionheart Academy series.

["Tyler-
Some days I wish I’d never met Gregory Baldwin. Then there are days when I feel like I’ll die if he’s away for too long.
It’s like I’m addicted to him. Addicted to the attention he gives me and what he does to me in secret. He has lips made for sin and a body I can’t keep my hands off of, but mostly, I know he has a heart. That’s what keeps me coming back.
Now he’s cruel, malicious, possessive… nothing like the boy I once knew. And yet, deep down, I know that guy is still there under this bad boy exterior. He has to be, or everything we’ve been through is pointless.
Being with him feels like dying and surviving all at once. It’s wild, manic, and soul-crushing, but it’s us. He’s all I’ve ever had and the only thing I’ll ever want.
Because even when I hate him…
I love him ten times harder.

Greg-
I’m broken beyond repair, too fucked up to be saved. My mind fights demons daily, while the shattered organ in my chest only causes me pain.
I wish I could just end it all. Say goodbye to this miserable existence.
Only, to leave this life would mean leaving him, and that’s not something I can do.
Once I made a promise to a boy that I plan on keeping. The years may have dragged us apart, and I know he hates me now, but that’s okay. I don’t blame him; I hate myself, too.
Regardless of the animosity, one thing remains the Tyler.
He’s the constant in a haze of self-destruction. The one who somehow, after everything, is still there for me, no matter how badly I mess up.
I don’t deserve him. I never did, but I’ll never let him go either.
He is mine, and I am his."]

UGH!! D: These two were the worst. In the way that they were the most in love and the most in grief. It was complicated as hell, but they kept coming back together. 

And I kept crying. Sooo much crying! But it was heartbreak from shitty parents, losing a parent, not to mention the friendship and relationship that blew up, all of the betrayal from book one, depressive episodes, drunk confessions, these characters crying. Fuck me, my eyes are sore.

But honestly, this was my favorite book in the series. Seeing how precious and cute and fucking puuure their friendship was, how much they meant to each other, the mutual crushes. The crushing weight of Mary’s death..and how it followed them for years to come.

Trigger Warnings: homophobia, depression, depressive thoughts, loss of a parent, bullying, mental illness, complicated grief, suicidal thoughts, child abuse, alcoholism or using alcohol as a coping mechanism, and more.

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