That One Moment (Altered Paths #1)

Continuing on a TBR/Beat-The-Backlog kick (and ignoring my ARCs kick). Here's "That One Moment" by CS Autumn. It's the first novel in the Altered Paths series.

["𝗝𝗮𝗺𝗶𝗲
In one moment, I found the man of my dreams. In another moment, I lost him.
Without Cooper, my world was fractured, and I made sure his twin brother knew it. I unleashed all my pain onto Caiden, ignoring the fact that he wasn't to blame. Afterwards, I spent three years pretending I’d moved on, pretending that I’d left the past behind me. I became so good at it. No one saw the heartbroken man behind the mask.
Until one phone call brings Caiden back into my life. Seeing him again opens old wounds, forcing us both to be painfully honest and making me question everything I believe about love.

𝗖𝗮𝗶𝗱𝗲𝗻
Cooper isn't just my twin, he's my best friend and a better person than I could ever be.
I regret all the choices I made that hurt him, but none so much as the ones that led to the worst night of our lives. For three years, I punished myself until it all became too much, and I made a decision that I hoped would bring me closer to him. Instead, it only brought Jamie Durand back into my life.
I’ve tried to hate him - ever since he and Cooper fell hopelessly in love - but I never could. Because secretly, even though it made me a terrible brother, I wanted Jamie to look at me the way he did Cooper. Now he’s back in my life, and there’s something between us that neither of us can deny.
Only, it’s very possible we’ll both end up hurt again, and I’m not sure either of our hearts can take that."]

Well if you feel like sobbing uncontrollably for a few hours, with no hope of stopping any time soon, this is your book. It will destroy you (more than you can even imagine). Just when you think you might not cry, just when you think you're okay, just when you think you can't possibly cry anymore..gut punch.

I've held off reading this one for so long because I knew it would destroy me. I knew it would be hard and harsh. I knew I wouldn't love the timeline of things and the "reality" of things and the horrible things people would say (that they would say to each other). It sucked. It sucked a lot.

But...But healing is also just as powerful. The sunshine after the rainstorm is just as bright as it was before the clouds moved in. Family and friends and support can be stronger after a tragedy. You can be stronger, braver, bolder after you break.

Trigger Warnings: parental neglect, self-harm (on-page), sexual assault (on-page), death by motor accident (on-page), mentions of illegal substance use, cheating (not between MCs), grief, suicide attempt (on-page), anxiety, depression, negative self-talk, and more.

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