Revved Up (The Bad Boys of Belmont #1)

Here's "Revved Up" by Blane Bellamy. This is the first novel The Bad Boys of Belmont series.

["Felix (21 years old)
My father is the Mayor of Belmont, and if he finds out I’m working at a diner in the rough part of town, he’ll have me committed. He’d rather I hide in my bedroom than stoop so low as to be a server.
Well, I’d rather be a server than a lying, two-faced politician.
This is so much more than just a job; it’s the first step on the road to independence—discovering who I am, rather than what others want me to be. Plus, I have another mission to accomplish.
I want Torren.
Talking to Torren felt wonderful. Effortless. We bantered—I made him laugh. He has a nice laugh.
Then, he turned into such a jerk...
And I loved it.
I dreamt of him—his strong, calloused hands wrapped around my throat. Do I have a fear fetish, or is it the combination of attraction mixed with the carnal intensity of his anger?
The human mind is wild.
Something clicked on inside me when we started fighting. The fog of despair I’ve lived in since Mother died lifted, and I felt alive again. My body thrummed with adrenaline. Blood rushed through my veins, and I was more aroused than I’ve been in ages.
I don’t want to lose that feeling

Torren (25 years old)
I stare at the blood dripping down my finger, remembering the jubilation I felt when I ended those sick perverts. That moment marked the beginning of my descent into darkness. I let the wicked rage that consumed me morph into something violent and wrong, and I’ve been trying to keep it locked up ever since.
I never wanted to be violent. I never wanted to be a criminal.
I left the Hellcats to end all of that!
All I ever wanted was a family—to be loved.
Instead, the Kays broke my heart and turned me into this. That’s what happens when you put your heart on the line. I thought I’d succeeded in leaving it all behind me.
Until I saw him.
He made me feel those same urges again.
Felix Hargrove doesn’t know it, but he’s in danger. Something inside me isn’t right, and I don’t want him anywhere near it.
I wish I could have him, but I can’t.
It’s not safe for him."]

The push and pull between these two was intoxicating. The hurt/comfort was almost kind. The opposites attract was blurry. It was a hot mess of "oh my god, yes" and "no, you idiot." 

Torren and Felix were made for each other. They felt that zing the moment they met, the moment they locked eyes with each other. They had such instant chemistry, everyone at the diner saw it. Their tragedies even matched. Their biggest enemies (well Torren's) were themselves. Somehow, through the tears and blood and nightmares, they made it work. 

I canNOT wait for Gabe's! Even if it's going to hurt like hell. 

Trigger Warnings: memories of child sex trafficking, murder, extreme physical violence, pharmacological poisoning, domestic violence, parental suicide, descriptions of mental health disturbances, suicidal ideation, extreme breath play, and more.

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